On December 31 st at 6:30am I was jolted awake by my longtime boyfriend having a massive heart attack. He had passed away and my life changed in the blink of an eye. Dealing with grief is a horrible thing. My heart was broken. He was my best friend.
I do occasionally suffer from anxiety and depression so I knew that I had to take control of my emotions quickly or I would be doomed. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. Of course, I had to share the news with family and friends because they had to know and, of course, because they care.
So, in order to reach everyone, I posted on Facebook. I have such wonderful friends. They were there for me with their encouraging words. There were also those who I haven’t really connected with in a long time, but they were right there messaging me, asking what happened, how it happened, etc., which would traumatize me as well as anger me. Using social media and having my friends touch base with me to make sure I was ok and taking care of myself through the whole ordeal was the basic contact I needed.
But…I was still alone.
Crying. Sinking lower into the chasm of despair
Through it all, I still had to keep up with my business. As a social media manager, I had to be on top of things every day for my clients. It was a good distraction for the most part but I was grieving, stressed, anxious and reliving the horror.
Thank goodness for The Tree of Health Center! I started having Reiki sessions with Linda. I attended their once-a-month Reiki Clinic and had great sessions with everyone there. Linda also started doing CranioSacral Therapy (CST) on me. Debra and I worked together using Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT or tapping) and Be Set Fast Free (BSFF) to help me release the pent-up emotions and trauma
I was amazed how well all these different modalities have helped me. Seriously.
When I felt sadness, anxiety or a full out bawling session coming on, I would begin to tap. It would calm me down and make me feel better. It has helped me focus more on the good memories, the love, the laughter and our life together. I can tap at home, in the car, at my desk, just about anywhere which is fantastic because you never know when something will trigger you.
Finally feeling like I am on a good path, along comes the Coronavirus. Now we are stuck at home bombarded with all the news on the TV, multiple posts on Facebook about how many have caught COVID-19, how many have died, what we should be doing/not doing, fake news, true news, traumatic news. For people like me who are now alone it is very isolating, depressing and stressful.
How about you?